Today I want to give up.

I suck at life right now. I'm a horrible homemaker, and mother and wife right now. My house is ridiculously messy. Not just a little messy, or "gosh it looks like a bomb went off in here", but horrific. When my older sister told me her house was a wreck when I went there last week I was expecting something awful, but it looked as good as my house could look if I cleaned non stop for months. My messy and your messy is probably very different. And I don't like living this way. I want to give up, run away, and hide.

That is all.

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I am a girl of the digital age. I know this. Sometimes it comes in handy for work, or whatever little computer thing comes up, but today is one of those days that I am very aware of how digital my life is.

Today I downloaded 17 books for my Kindle. Ranging from fluffy romance novels, to non-fiction discussions on Christian nursing, to a Bible with concordance that may come in handy. All of them were free. This, I love. Days of reading on the Kindle for FREE! The great thing about the Kindle is it will read the book out loud in an amusing robot voice, which I plug into the car stereo while I am driving. Romance novels are a good length and style for this because they suck you right in.

But in addition to this, I also downloaded 14 sermons just from my church. It occurs to me I need to get my ipod over to my desk so I can charge and refresh it's contents. Perhaps tomorrow.

With all of the gadgetry, including my cell phone and such there never seem to be enough outlets. Oh sure the house has enough (except at Christmas) but never right by the door where my "charge it where you see it near your purse or you will have a well charged cell phone on a useless shelf at home just when you need it" philosophy plays out.

My favorite patient died today

Free of her body
and mind plagued by a disease
dancing with Jesus.

I'll miss you beautiful lady. Your wonderful and gentle spirit made me smile every day.

Seven Quick Takes

~1~

My laptop is broken. It always ran hot, and eventually the video card went kaput. It was just out of warranty when it happened, and even though it is an HP defect they won't replace it. Do until Kim gets the replacement part (which will also eventually overheat and go kaput due to the defect) I am using the desktop in the dining room. Which is why I haven't been posting as much. This chair is very uncomfortable. Maybe I should recover them and put in some extra foam. My mom did that when we lived in Connecticut and it made a huge difference. Anyhow, I miss my laptop... a lot.

2.

Julia has an admirer. And I found a note form him in her back pack mentioning dating. I do not like this. Problem is he is her only friend. What is a mom supposed to do? ack!

3.

We had Joe's parent/teacher conference this past week. he is doing well in school and his teacher thinks he is funny, smart, and delightful. I'm good with that. His only issue is that he reverses some things, but it's his idiosyncracy and we don't even notice it anymore. We are trying to notice now and make an effort for him to correct things like "I can have water?" into "Can I have water?". It'll work out.

4.

I need to give Kim a haircut. He looks shaggy and I've been in such bad shape I haven't done it. He always looks so handsome when I am done.

5.

Trying to get back on track with weight loss. Halloween candy is not helping the cause. The Wii Fit Plus is helping a little, but it's hard to get time on the games when the kids are playing. lol

6.

Speaking of Halloween:

7.

Am motivated to clean to get ready for Christmas decos! The problem is, no one else cares.